Day CLXX

Motivation

     “Motivation is a bitch, man.”

     “Come again.”

     “Motivation! Junkies never know when to give up, they keep coming back. They keep on ticking like that damned Timex in the commercial. Maybe that safe was his motivation to clean up, get a job, get inside…you know, and git da moniiieeee E.”

     “Who knows man, who really knows, ya na?”

    If we could be as motivated as junkies…to quit, I guess we would all quit. We’re all creatures of habit; do something, anything once, it’s done; do again, and it can be the first step to a habit; do it once more, you got your foot in the door; one more time, and you got yourself a habit. Good, bad they all pretty much start the same way. It’s easiest to nip bad habits in the first steps, if you recognize them. But once they’re full flown, you got a problem. When that happens you need motivation to quit. A reason to quit, if we can understand the reason for smoking in the first place, its raison d'être, then we can better deal with it.

     I’m not talking about because I want to or because it feels good. Nicotine calms you down, and heals your angst is what it does. It helps to kill your anxieties. Find another way to do that, know why you’re anxious, the cause of your anxiety, and you’re half way there.

     A friend told me he quit one day, by smoking his brains out at a party, smoking more than two packs before the party was over. He was sick for more than a week, and every time he even thunk of lighting one up he felt a terrible distress, nausea, and the pangs for a smoke faded. So he quit! I don’t know if this will work for everybody. It may for young dudes, but maybe not for us older folks. Anyway, methinks it’s one way to go about it, but you need the motivation.